"El perfecto vida"

Haha otak tgh pening,smlm pas lepak ngan Cikgu Tini,Cikgu Maisarah..smpi kol 12 lepak Kedai 23 hoho..mcm best aje dia citer wahaha.Pastu balek smbung nk wat esemen otak dah jem..so aku search la kat google sal menda alah nih..lol bongok nyer gambo2 nih..jom layan LOL sket..muahahha























Bajet 50 Cent huhu



















LOL mampuih la kucing nih


















Kejung ekor kucing nih,lol

























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RAaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrwwwwwwwwrrrrr....

It has been fated...fake smiles all round,fake smiles..yes fake smiles

How long will I be able to fake it ?the pain inside...is starting to take the best out of me

There was..I hope to live again once more and feel what its like before...lots of thing changes these few months

My body and soul wanders looking for light...light that once shed me has gone,light that governs my heart has left

looking for its new path...I need strength...please lend m your strength whoever you are...thank you for reading

Cantik nyer la interior PC nih..airflow pon cun siap ngan murder-mod



















Siap crossfireX dual HD5970..adehh..ampu tengok ajela ek =(


Hanya tinggal mimpi....

Dr Ghazali T.V. Ahmad..my dad,i wish you were never hurt as you are now,I am sorry...please ya Allah,give us strength..I love you,be strong,I will look after mommy and adik2 sume..I don't know what to say,if I have the strength,I shall take the pain from you..be strong ayah,anak2 mu selalu susahkan ayah.....please take the pain from him and give back all the health he borrowed all this while..he is our hero,we all look up to him...he gave us strength while we were sad and has always been there for us..now is our turn to lend him our strength..i bear a heavy task of seeing my siblings cry..i have no heart now..all my loved ones are now fading away from me...Allahuakbar.....ayah......

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Selamat pagi dan salam sejahtera kepada semua yang datang baca blog aku =).Nih pagi Sabtu nih aku nak bagitau sumthing sket lah pandangan aku tentang Rakyat.So ape kena mengana Rakyat dalam hal nih..aku hari nih nak cakap pasal DUIT RAKYAT !.So bila kita cakap pasal rakyat yang terlintas kat minda kite mestilah pasal penduduk Malaysia yang tersayang nih kan.Ok so taknah tangguh cakap banyak terus kite fokus kepada duit rakyat.Bile sebut je duit rakyat maka terlintas juga pasal rakyat Malaysia banyak bayar tax itu..tax ini dan macam2 jenis cukai dikenakan.Cukai nih dugunakan untuk bayar gaji governments servant dan digunakan juga untuk pembangunan negara.Dan satu lagi,duit2 cukai yang dibayar 27 Juta Rakyat Malaysia nih adalah digunakan untuk sektor pelajaran terutamanya dalam pemberian biasiswa dan pinjaman pelajaran...so nih la aku naik panas hati nih.

Aku study kat UniKL dan aku duduk kat sini tengok kawan2 aku yang dapat loan MARA,dan tak terlepas juga kawan2 aku kat UK dan mana2 lah diorang pergi pon.Masing2 bila dapat loan MARA habis belanja beli itu lah,beli inilah...kalo kat Malaysia nih,kumpul duit beli motor lah,beli barang2 PC la,,beli iPhone la,henpon 3G mak G ape2 kagi tah sume boros..kalo yang kat oversea plak,pergi jalan2 keliling europe lah..beli DSLR lah,beli itu dan beli ini dan macam2 lagi..astaga,punya lah senang belanja duit tu semudah itu..korang tahu tak betapa susahnye lah nak dapat duit ??? Korang senang2 aje dapat duit terus habis boros ??? Hoi anak watan...betapa jangan kaburkan diri korang dengan kejayaan korangyang tak seberapa itu,dedarlah dan berpijak dibumi yang nyata...jangan ingat mentari menyinar all the time.Betapa ramai keluarga daif dan susah payah di Malaysia ini bersusah payah mencari sesuap rezeki...si ayah membanting tulang bekerja keras,si ibu juga tak kurang juga bertungkus lumus mencari keperluan keluarga....ramai orang kat dunia nih hidup bersusah payah dan mati kebuluran,namun anda semu hidup bermewah tanpa merasai betapa susahnya nak cari even RM1 ? Anda semua membelanjakan wang kutipan cukai dan hasil titik peluh rakyat dengan semudah itu dan dah la boros hasil usaha orang lain..pastu pergi tayang kat Facebook dan berlagak dengan gahnya tayang kat orang yang..I dah pergi sini,I ada nih..I dah pernah rasa itu..dan macam2 lagi...korang nih sedar tak sebenarnya ? Duit tu korang senang2 boros..walhal orang kat tempat lain bersusah payah nak cari makan untuk famili..korang tak rasa ke betapa beratnya nak belanjakan wang nh ?

Selamba aje habiskan 600 British pounds untuk pergi trip keliling Europe la,nak pergi main ski la..nak pergi Scots lah,nak pergi naik Eiffel la...orang kat Malaysia nih,kerja sehari suntuk cari duit,,ade yang kena bayar RM10 aje sehari tahu tak ? Itu lah korang yang tak tahu harga duit itu..sekarang nih mentang2 la dapat duit tiap2 bulan just tunggu duit masuk bank...sebab tu korang tak rasa susah,cuba try skali MARA tak masuk duit 4-5 bulan,time tu baru la korang rasa susah takde duit...time ade duit lupa diri,time tu MARA tak bayar korang plak akan caci maki MARA kata pegawai tak buat kerja..ape hal pulaknya ? Masa kamu semua berduit tak reti nak menyimpan habis kering 650 pound sebulan yang MARA bagi (Overseas) n RM700 ntok UniKL students...ape la nak jadi ngan korang  ni ha ? AKu tak dapt loan n aku tahu betapa susah nak cari duit..aku tengok kawan2 aku belanja macam  duit tu hak mereka sepenuhnya dan lupa dari mana duit tu datang dan jangan lupa..sesen duit itu dianiaya,berdosalah anda...so maaf kepada yang terasa,tapi aku memang sedih tengok kawan2 dan orang yang aku kenal boros dan lupa diri dan tak berpijak dibumi nyata...

Wahaha,bengong gambo nih

I iz lol

I hate to see the one I love happy with somebody 
but I surely hate it more to see the one I love unhappy with me...

~ Some Day You'll Cry For Me Like I Cried For You, 
~ Some Day You'll Miss Me Like I Missed You, 
~ Some Day You'll Need Me Like I Needed You, 
~ Some Day You'll Love Me But I Won't Love You


Hmm..

Life after you

All that I want is people who appreciate me,is it hard to appreciate someone that you say you love ? Is it ?

You said you love but u actually never did..

Sigh,my pride hurts more than my heart is

Arghh nak tulis,time nih la nak kne buat itu la..buat ini lah huhu

3.58 a.m GMT +8 Hrs

Perfect time to write touching2 entries haha

Wow dah pakai contact lens biru ye skrg hehe,skrg u dah dpt wat macam2 yang I tak bagi u buat dulu kan..haha xpelah asalkan u happy I pon happy =)

Tapi..tah xpelah,xnak cakap nanti ade yang ambil hati pula huhu,weh tadi aku first time pergi Mali's Corner kat Unitar tu ha..ramai orang beb,haha terkejut juga..dah lama tahu pasal Mali's nih,tapi tadi first time aku pergi sana.Sangat lah ramai orang..huhu tapi nasi lemak nyer takdelah sedap mana..seriously huhu,char koay teow dia pon tak rasa lagi..next time la eh..haha cume Nescafe tarik dia aje yang best..sama mcm mummy aku buat huhu..

Bulan nih dah overspend and kurang bernaseb baik awal bulan aritu coz kena refund customer and lost RM1.2k =(.Adeh..Exahertz IT baru nak mula dah ade setback..takpe2 jadikan nih sebagai pembakar semangat huhu...so ape boleh wat?Kena la korbankan PC aku yang baru setup 2 minggu..3 bulan kumpol duit wuahhhhh...=(.So sekarang togel takde ape dah..laptop Nadiah ajela aku pinjam ni ha.Sian adik aku asik berebut ngan dia haha...sorry ye dear.My dream dari dulu nak ade high-end rig of my own..tapi up till now,tak pernah tahan lebih 3 minggu max..ade je yang tak kena.Takpelah takde rezki gamaknya...GD80..dari dulu lagi aku idam,tapi takpelah..pon takde rezki kot..maybe suatu hari kalo Allah nak takdirkan aku dapat,aku syukur sangat2..=).Sorry tapi aku memang tak kenal erti mengalah..kecuali mati huhu..

This is the power of love =)

No matter what,my heart stays..I believe that one day,that the other half of my heart will come back to where it belongs =).I dont know why but I believe in it =)

Sorry for not updating this blog for quiet a time oredi coz my head is full of lots of things that made me go crazy.Well yesterday I was stalking huhu and I stumbled upon one beautiful lady which post the Nadia (Forgot the song name but remember its lyrics huhu)song.I loved her song so much ..I first heard about the song when I was in standard 4..Nadia was famous at that time huhu..and how daja vu it was only a few days back when I asked my colleagues bout this song and they gave me the title and it brought back the memories and its lyric clicks with the thing that has happened to me since the end of December 09..haha

And to my surprise..this lady also put this song on her FB page.Back in the times when we were together,the element of togetherness and our 6th sense always worked wonders..we always SMS'ed at the same time where each one of us are typing,listen to the same old song always managed to read the heart of our partner..(if you want me to explain..xhabis cerita nnt huhu)but now,even though the moments are left behind after 2 and a half months..the sense that we share are not dead,heart beats though its clouded..guess I'll have to bear this and yet hope for the sunshine to  and the roses return in full bloom..

Hope.yes I do hope for the old time returns back..people tell me to just go on and find another one,but hey..I am happy for myself for not doing so,because the reason is that I know all this while I love her so much and with my full heart..thats why even after being torn this bad.. my heart & myself remains here..

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Istiqamah = Tetap,teguh,tidak berganjak
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Istiqamah is the word that I holld onto..seeing the meaning makes me strong even though at times when there were I'll remain me,the only thing that stops me from doing this..is she marrying another person,because at that time its between her and that man..I can no longer interfere..I dont want to hurt their happiness though its bleak..I'll just runaway and never comeback..ONLY if the one that I fears most happens..then I wont stop hoping and staying as I am now...prove me wrong my dear and show the true colours of yours.

When people ask me what happened between me n her..to tell all the truth,up until this very second..I never knew why she did that? Seriously I have no idea..If I knew..i'll never be as I am now..she never tells me why,all she did was to pull the trigger...and left me numb wondering all alone..hmm

MENGAPAKAH ?

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Bila cinta didusta

Hati mula gelisah
Hilang kekasih hati
Hidup jadi merana
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Insan jadi idaman
Kini dimilik orang
Cinta yang diimpikan
Putus di tengah jalan
Terpaksa mengalah
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Mengapa menyinta
Andainya tak setia
Tak usahlah bercinta
Jika hanya berpura
Bila hati dah jemu
Mula berpaling tadah
Tak pernah difikirkan
Orang yang ditinggalkan
Tersiksa sayu pilu
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Ooo...oo merayu-rayu
Ooo...oo ingin kembali
Ooo...oo meratap sayu
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Tidak mungkin orang simpati
Menoleh pun tak sudi
Andainya ditakdirkan
Cintamu didustai
Pastinya kau mengerti
Siksanya perpisahan
Hanyalah penyesalan
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Lost and lonely now are you ? Mistakes has cost you =)

You turn to people who gave u fake hopes and try to prove me wrong =)

Instead you are the one now suffering after what you did =)

You said I was wrong when what you revolves in are beyond acceptable =)

You think you can find happiness when all you did was engrave pain and hate =)

You think you are strong whereas you're not =)

You think you have friends when what you did is to be with hidden enemies =)

You think you can kill me off and destroy my life =)

You think you can make me the person I'm not =)

You give yourself fake hopes by relying on your clouded misery =)

You wana find my replacement..well have fun trying mate =)

You leave me when I need you..well no commenton this =)

You hurt me so deep that I can't feel the pain anymore =)

Huhu